New Years Resolution

I am making a new years resolution this year and like so many others it is to get in shape and lose weight. I have fought with my weight my whole life, I was not born with good genetics, I actually have a lot of strikes against me. I am one of those people who look at food and gain weight. It also doesn't help that I love food. I have tried dieting many times but it always fails. When I got pregnant with Stella I gain almost 50lbs. it was ridiculous. I did lose all the weight but about 7lbs. When I was pregnant with Carter I only gained 30 which was better but still not great. For the last 3 1/2 years I have had a constant hate relationship with my body. It is not even recognizable to me. Looking back at pictures of when I was in high school and college I can not believe that I thought I was fat, sure I wasn't tiny but I would give anything to look like that or even close to that again. I don't know if my body can do it but I have decided that enough is enough. I am sick of being disgusted with myself and it's time to do something about it. I am only 29 years old, I am not going to live the rest of my life loathing my body.

I joined the YMCA on Monday and went and worked out yesterday and today.

So I think I am going to add this part of my life journey into my blog, maybe some of you feel the same way I do or can relate in some way. Maybe we can support and encourge each other, and maybe at the begining of 2012 I will have great accoplishments to report.

Public Access Channel

Random fact about Dan and I, we love the local public access channel. Our favorite is when they play the show choirs summer park performances but really anything will do. I want to say that we watch it because it is actually quality entertainment but that would be a lie. We watch it because it is bizarre and fascinating all at the same time. We watch it wide eyed with our mouths open and all we can say to each other is "is this real?" We also ad lib from time to time. When I gave birth to Stella I clearly remember laying in the hospital and watching it and us dying laughing. Maybe that's where Stella's sense of humor began...

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