Wednesday, January 5, 2011

New Years Resolution

I am making a new years resolution this year and like so many others it is to get in shape and lose weight. I have fought with my weight my whole life, I was not born with good genetics, I actually have a lot of strikes against me. I am one of those people who look at food and gain weight. It also doesn't help that I love food. I have tried dieting many times but it always fails. When I got pregnant with Stella I gain almost 50lbs. it was ridiculous. I did lose all the weight but about 7lbs. When I was pregnant with Carter I only gained 30 which was better but still not great. For the last 3 1/2 years I have had a constant hate relationship with my body. It is not even recognizable to me. Looking back at pictures of when I was in high school and college I can not believe that I thought I was fat, sure I wasn't tiny but I would give anything to look like that or even close to that again. I don't know if my body can do it but I have decided that enough is enough. I am sick of being disgusted with myself and it's time to do something about it. I am only 29 years old, I am not going to live the rest of my life loathing my body.

I joined the YMCA on Monday and went and worked out yesterday and today.

So I think I am going to add this part of my life journey into my blog, maybe some of you feel the same way I do or can relate in some way. Maybe we can support and encourge each other, and maybe at the begining of 2012 I will have great accoplishments to report.

1 comment:

  1. you can do it! i'm right there with you - and yes - i look back at pictures from hs and college and wish i could look like that again - i did lose 50 lbs. back in 2008 with WW and going to the gym - and then moved and gained 20 lbs back and when i was trying to lose those again - got pregnant and put on 39... so now i'm back at it - trying to do WW on my own (trying to save some $$) and going to the gym